LKW ( 15/1/1999 ) | |
| From | 1.40 AM |
| Comments | Well...this is mi 2nd book liao ....1st one coz she knew it ....she always go there see wat I type....*sighZ* so mi think better for mi to change a new book ...at least I have mi own place ....wan to say wat juz type out dun need worry abt her ...sighZ 1st book why I delete becoz ....AaRghhh ...sighZ all.....gone....all .....gone.....THE PAST 1st Dec ....she muackZ mi there coz I create her a homepage ......6th Dec mi go to her house ask WS to pass her 12 stalk of pink rose....pengZ should be 11 stalk ....12 mean friendship....*sighZ* 23th Dec becoz of Xmas coming I ask mi bro .....pass her a towl bear with a card...glad she like it *smile* her mum more funny ask her to use that to mop floor .....1st Jan 1999 1st time meet her at her house downstair.....pengZ.....we stand ard 1 hrs plus *chat*....but mi *kokz miself* keep say abt CMW .....sighZ...dun know wat to say oso ......meet her not even dare to face her ....feel so pai seh....so kang chong......Haha...dun know why I like this ...maybe becoz b4 meet each other I tell her I like U.... lor.....9th Jan 99 I ask her some thing abt mi ....wat U treat mi as ......had U even luv mi b4 ??? she say until now she still treat mi as best friends *heart break * doesn't mean dun have feeling.....I had try to like U but.....LCY wat is this ??? *sighZ* we both cry when we tok on phone .....mi heart break ....but see her like this feel more pain ...so I relax tok to her .....suddenly she say mi wan to go eat satay .....so we meet at 9 pm at her house downstair , go CQ eat satay .....11 pm plus I & her walk to MS KTV wait CMW to join us ....on the way to MS I try to hold her hands but she let go *sighZ* nothing.....nothing.......after Ktv we 3 walk to suntec sitting there chat awhile .....mi @@ lost oso .....sighZ....blur king .....chat a while we send her back home ....on the way back to Tampines I tell CMW Pls dun pg that fucking code to her again ....CMW hear liao juz diam diam ....Aarghhhhhh....... |
1.23 Am ( 16/1/1999 ) | |
| From | Recond of mi 1st BooK |
| Comments | This is wat I wrote on mi 1st dairy......on 27-12-1998 .....I start wrote this.... already 5 am plus ....I still haben koonz ....mi mind keep thinking wat had happen today ? 3 of us at there din tok much ....I diam diam din tok much to both of them .... she type song lyrics.....CMW oso type song lyrics.....kaoz wat U all doing ?? *sob* all mi wrong ....make they 2 din tok .....all mi wrong.... juz hate to be there....hate miself ....with out mi....they might be together.... without mi ...here might be a wonderful place & days for they 2 ....*sighZ*................. On 30-12-1998 .......I ask her some thing abt us .... she din give mi an ans .....jus hint. ....dun understand she trying to tell mi wat.....I so topigggg.....maybe I understand juz act blur *sob* we chat on phone until 9 am ................. On 30-12-98 ......2nd last days of 1998 ....H5 that guy make some chatter at there not happy I see wat they type in main ......juz feel that H5 think who is him ?? mi actally dun wan to help but think abt her.....*sighZ* I log in as other nick try to tok to them dun get angry becoz of that H5 is not her who....dun angry becoz of that....they hear wat I say .....at least can feel ..... they cool down liao ....she oso at least won't feel sad .......99 coming....... *sighZ* I still awake .....my mind now keep thinking wat I been doing for the past few mths.... chatting at there ....let mi some chatters *gals* who really care and luv mi .....jolene.... express her luv to mi thru I C Q .......I reject her ....not becoz we never meet ....becoz I dun have the feeling ......michelle treat mi very good.....she a nice gal.....she care and luv mi the most ....we luv each other b4 and after meet ...,,but we not suit .......jess.....mi ex gf .... who luv mi deep inside her heart .....but at the end she choose to leave mi .....coz she patch back with her ex bf.....*sighZ* daphne a nice gal too.....but I hurt her .....until now I still feel sorry for her ......when I think how she treat mi like wat mi ex ...... coz she same age with her ...... juz feel impossible....now she keep avoid mi ?? dun know oso ....juz hope we still are friends......JUNE time know a gal.....LCY.....juz feel she special.... dun know why I feel in luv ......*pengZ* but mi bro CMW ......oso like her ....when CMW go NS that time I did ask her ....U like him ?? she din give mi any ans , she juz say she miss him ...and she feel we hurt her .....but she and CMW were never know they both NOW hurt mi oso .......... On 01-01-1999........I know that her reg nick got /wait CMW ......becoz I use CMW nick she know it......mi nick maybe she didn't /wait.....*sad* she tell mi she wan to do wat ....but now ....wat she do ....have her even know how I feel anot ?? *cried* mi heart cannot take it any more....feel hurt ....pain.....very pain.....*cried*.............. 02-01-1999........yesterday and today I try not to log in there .....becoz I know CMW came back from camp....dun wan becoz of mi they 2 din tok .....I see from outside ....she show some thing CMW .....a guestbook which she create .....wrote how she feel abt him ....*sad* today she tell mi if I wan to say out wat juz say out but at least give her some time to explain dun juz log off ....*sighZ* she start to know mi well liao............03-01-1999............ we 3 at there ......diam diam din tok much oso ...esp mi ......I msg to both of them coz I very tried din sleep at all.......b4 they msg mi back....I already log off..... 11 plus she call mi ask I sleep liao izzit ?? after ans her she say ok U go sleep lor 12 plus very funny she pg mi 6000-9 .....*sighZ* 2 am plus I log in ...... happy to see her nick at there .....after 10 min saw CMW log in too..... pengZ Cold war again ....4 am plus ....CMW go to other room type some words...... I go there tok to him ......he tell mi she show him that guestbook ..... he beg us to forgive him ....& he ask mi dun go overseas stay ....... I know wat he mean .....*ban mi tables* treat mi as wat ??? suddenly he summon her to our room.....*cough* mi wanted sign off ...but see she there better dun let her feel wat......3 of us chatting at there not really feel good.....cry on the other side.....*sad* 5 am plus CMW log off...... leave mi & her at there.....2 of us log off oso .....we tok on phone until 6 am plus , ard that time CMW page code 532 to her ....kaoz NB mi feel Aaarghhhhhh....sighzz .....10 am plus she ask mi log in net ....tell mi CMW write some thing at her guestbook ...sighz....wat rubbish he type again...signzz...always like this always make this kind of topigg thing.....*sob* 3 of us chat until the time when CMW going to leave .... as for mi & jessica ard 6 pm plus we chat on phone NB that CMW page her code again wat 532....12 Kaoz....Arghhhhh sighzzzz....*jealous* CMW if U really like her pls go ahead I won't blame U but.....*sighZ* I tell her if I leave U juz like that how ?? she say she wont blame mi for doing that ....but I know she were be very sad ......I tell her I can feel her understand her , even she din say anything , & I can feel she like mi ....only time can see ......sighz........04-01-1999....... 1st time meet her.....at her house down stair .......I dun dare to face her when she toking to mi very kang chong lor......some more .....we tok an hrs all tok abt CMW *kokz miself* juz feel we had a nice day lor.......05-01-1999 .....I resign mi job......pg her during her sch time ...... I know I should not call her this hrs.....but I....*kokzmiself* juz nothing....... 09-01-1999........she tell mi FW oso like her.......*sighZ* I dun know wat to say oso .....juz feel nothing...nothing.......*sad*........10-01-1999........I tok to her those thing again .... ask her like mi anot ?? she give mi the same ans as b4.....*sob* mi heart hurt......nothing .... only can say nothing.....dun know how to put it.....later we 2 meet at 9pm go CQ eat satay....... ard 11 plus we call CMW go to MS KTV .....we walk to MS ....I try to hold her hands ....but she reject I know 1st time meet should not do this......but I....nothing......nothing......after KTV 3 of us go suntec chit chat.....sighZ mi @@ lost .....nothing.....ard 4 am plus we send her back home.... on the way back to home .....I tell CMW ....pls from now onwards pls dun pg that code again ..... *sighZ*.......some time I dun know wat her thinking .......his thinking oso ....jus feel.... if I never luv her .....never chat at there....won't happen all those thing.....that why nowdays I I try not to log in .....alot of thing ....I can't say here.....mi feeling ....mi thinking....*sighZ* no one will understand mi ......nothing .....juz nothing...... |
1.40AM ( 16/1/1999 ) | |
| Comments | Nothing to say ....see her xiao di....type only make mi feel jealous only NBZ...why I so jealous one huh ????? kaoz.....go Zzzzz better.. |
Delete from 1st book ( 17/1/1999 ) | |
| Comments | ------------------------------------------------------------------------ | Guestbook | Add Guestbook Entry | HomePage | | Edit | Remove | Preferences | Listings | Create | ------------------------------------------------------------------------ ------------------------------------------------------------------------ LKW ( 14/1/99 )Comments AaRrGgg.....mi SO topigggg go delete all the msg here *sighZ* ..... topigggg hands *chop down better* sighZ....all .....gone....all ....gone ...... all gone.....*sob*.... 13-01-99 6 plus Today I see her nick at there .....when I was checking mails.....sighZ she promise mi mon-thur dun chat .... some more FW nick was there oso....*sad* promise mi oso no chioce ..... she got the right to log in ....who am I ? angry wat ??? jealous wat ?? *kokZ miself* kaoZ ....she msg mi thru I C Q .....she know every words I had type here ....*sighZ* si liao she know everything.....*slap miself* NbZ ...*log off* after that I call up tell her I not purposely juz log off .... ard 6 plus when I tok to LLF on phone ....she leave voice mail to mi feel sad ....ard 20 min she call LLF ....ask some thing abt sch ....hear LLF say she know we chatting .....sighZ....7 plus hang up phone with LLF ....I call her .....tok awhile ... she call mi tok awhile.....pengZ we 2 like play games izzit ??? kaoZ ....later I call her tell her after show U then call mi ......ard 9 plus she call up .....we chat abt 3 1/2 hrs..... keep suan each other .....piang eh ......=) .....puiZ .....b4 hang up phone ....she tell mi she wan to call FW Arghhh .......make mi jealous again ....kaoZ si char bo .... ...NbZ ....2nd time call mi tell mi that FW leave voice mail from Aust *oh mi god * *sighZ* Aaarghhhhhh......make mi until now haben koonZ leh .....sighZ.... think better go ZzzzZZ liao ....*sighZ* ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 6.15 pm ( 14/1/99 )Comments Today wake up 1st thing call her ....know she study so juz hang up phone .....an 1 hrs later she call mi we tok abt 1/2 hrs coz she say she wan to call that si lang FW ....Arghhhh....she hor nothing to do izzit ??make mi jealous again ....pengZ liao lah .....ard 12 plus I call her up again ....see she really go to sch anot ?? Wwahhhhhh......she pg mi dun know wat ?? call her up ask her hello char bo wat U pg huh ?? *SI ZHU TATA* Wah kaoz......si char bo ...always like this Haha......*smile* hmm.....after that mi go bom bom ....pg her that I'm going out ....actally mi go east coast and changi sea side ......dun know why I go there.....just feel very fun ....fun si ren .... I got alot of thing haben settle it .....some more mi no $$$ liao .....Arghhhh...young time dun listen wat parents say ....see now ....sighZ....I dun dare to tell any one abt it ..... dun dare to face mi parents....sighZ ....juz sitting at there sun tan ...sighZ .....wat to do ?? DUN WORRY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIAN WU ZUE REN ZHI LU !!!!!!!!!!!WORK HARD LKW !! ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 3.53AM ( 16/1/99 )From SighZ Still Awake....Comments Since I met you, I've fallen in love with you at least a hundred times for a hundred different reasons. Sometimes I fall in love with you when I watch you doing something you enjoy, something you're so involved in that you're unaware of my presence. Sometimes I fall in love with you when I listen to you talk to other people. Whether you're being interesting and funny or warm and caring and genuinely concerned, you have a way of making people feel better with nothing more than words. Sometimes I fall in love with you just thinking about you, remembering all the memories we've made... falling in love for the first time, staying in love during the rough times, finding more to love about each other every day. And whenever I think about the wonderful things that lie ahead of us, I fall totally and completely in love with you all over again. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ Heart Break ( 16/1/99 )Comments The first time I saw your sparking smile My heart was running a hundred beats a mile I felt a stream of love run through my veins But I knew that love also came with a thousand and one pains! When I feel your heart beat so close to mine I know that we started our fairy tale once upon a time On a day so bright and true Is when I fell in love with you. When I look at you, what do I see? I see you holding me� Holding me, for eternity In your arms is where I wanna be! Your hair shining in the scarlet moonlight I wonder if you would put up a fight? Fight for our love, Giving our love wings to soar like a dove. Looking deep in your dark brown eyes, Will there ever be another girl to despise? Hopefully not, after all I had a heart of silver and gold But now, this heart is what you hold. I would go to the end of the earth and back just to be with you If I knew that the love we share was pure and true. We have a special bond, impossible to break That took a long, long time to build and make. The love I feel for you is like a burning blaze With such great sparks that they make a person daze Do you think I will let you go? Never, ever For I will love you so always and forever� ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 3.45 PM ( 16/1/99 )Comments very sad....very hurt.....heart crack....feel like fell from a very high storey.....dun know how to stand up....dun know how ...*cried* wat topiggg thing I had done for the past few mths.....wat did I get ?? nothing....nothing....something I should not see ....why I so stubbon ....why I wan to see .....see liao like this ?? why ??*cried*..... why I like this ?? why ?? no one can help mi ...no one can tell mi wat should I do ?? give up ?? let go ?? say easy .....I dun .....know.......really.....dun know......in this world there nothing for mi to keep living....nothing.....I had waste 25yrs liao .....how many 25 yrs I still have ?? maybe later I might be gone forever....*sad* In This Worlds Nothing For Mi to Keep Fight For It.....Family ??? Love ??? Friendship ??? Brother ??? *cried*....... ------------------------------------------------------------------------ 4.71AM ( 17/1/99 )Comments Wanted to write some thing here.....think wat U had tell mi .....dun act blur......*sighZ* U won't understand one.....or maybe U know wat I wan to do .....nothing.......*ZzZZZ*When you first came into my life... I had no idea how easy you would be to talk to, and I never imagined that our early conversations would grow into such a strong friendship. I never suspected that we'd discover so many common interests and values, or that I could ever enjoy simple pleasures as much as when they are shared with you. I never thought we'd have so many warm and happy times together, or that your compassion would help so much to ease me through the rougher times. I didn't expect to feel so soon as though I'd known you forever, or to trust you so easily with my secrets and deepest feelings... I never thought that your support could make such a difference, that your encouragement would bring my dreams closer, make my successes sweeter and my losses easier to accept. I never imagined that I would grow to want, to need, and to love you so much. When you first came into my life, I never dreamed you'd soon be someone whom I couldn't live without. |
7.32 PM ( 31/1/1999 ) | |
| Comments | LKW ( 28/1/99 ) From 2.45 AM Comments Well...I'm back here again ....*smile*.....I miss here every single words I type .....miss her everdays .... miss everything.....sighZ....I always keep coming back here take a look ....but becoz of the reboot system ....until now I can sign this book again .... =) ....think back those few mths had happen to mi .....sighZ ....a very long & sad day for mi to rem it .....I dun know wat to do oso .....try to 4get her but ....still the same as b4 .....still luv her .....some time I ask miself ......why must treat her so good ? that day I ask her wat U treat mi as ? she tell mi until now still the same ....as best friend.....when I hear this ....itz break mi heart .....itz pain .....hurt ......I cried & din sleep that night ....keep thinking wat should I do ......juz keep thinking.....ans is dun know .....I hate it .....at the end I tell her one thing ....no matter wat happen I still always beside her ....still luv & care her as b4 .......very toopig....sighZ....dun know oso .....wat is luv ? I know ...but she know anot ?? even she luv who ....she oso dun know ..... she & CMW case already over ....but their ans is impossible .....know this I should feel happy ? no I not happy at all ......mi heart already hurt .....juz hope now we got time to chat , care , luv each other juz do it ......I dun have much time .....juz let it be .....let it be .....but I still hope she can juz say out she luv mi ...... 2.23 AM ( 29/1/99 ) From WiSh To CeLeBrAtE wItH hEr On 14-02-99 Comments Today I going out with mi ex .....& I found a new job intro by mi friends *pray* hope I can make it =) .......during that time I call her 2 time when I was at Orchard .....1st one to let her know I find a job ....I can feel she happy for mi too *smile* .....we chat on phone ard 10 pm plus ..... 1st she ask mi I call her infont of mi ex gf izzit ?? yah infont of her .... dun know she hear wat I say this will let her think wat leh ? .....actally I juz wan her to know ....she very important to mi .... wanted her to know I can't love 2 gals at the same time ....juz can't .....hope she know how I feel...... sighZ ..... 2nd she ask mi to reject the 8 pooh bear which I going to give her as persent on 14-02-99 .....sighZ ......I try very hard to look for it one leh sighZ ......ask her why ..... she juz diam diam dun ans mi ....sighZ ....at the end she ask mi how much U bought that 8 pooh bear huh ?? ehhhh...... nothing....*shhhh* juz dun hope she know abt it .....know she care and dun wish I spend so much .....*smile*...... 3rd I joking with her ..... I warning that FW dun call or pg U again .. ...sighZ she angry mi this .....Arrghh....the reason she give mi ..... next time she see him she sure feel pai seh one ...sighZ.....actally I din do that.....I won't do any thing let her feel wat ... know that she not feeling well today ....sighZ worried abt her .....study too much perssure izzzit ??? dun know .....hope she fine ....sighZ .......I miss her .....wanted to see her .... but she juz dun let mi meet her ....why ??? kaoZ mi feeling .....sighZ ....better hide it .....=( 4.29 AM ( 30/1/99 ) Comments SighZ.....b4 hang up phone ....she say some thing which hurt mi sighZ..... dun know wat to say oso ......juz diam diam ....later she pg mi ask mi to log off....wan to log off but think abt tomolow she still need to wake up early to study so I pg her good night ....sighZ I toopig pg her some chinese words some more I dun understand well .....sighZ........(Zhi shen de hao ai ni // wei he ni dui wo bu li // nao dao shi wo tai chi qing // yi wei neng gou kai duan qing .// ni fang xin ., wo bu guai ni // zhi guai dang chu tai ai ni)).....sighZ..... ask some one they tell mi something like this: really loved u,y u ig mi?it is i'm too passion?thought that this relationship will work,yr heart i wun bother only bother abt the last time i loved u too much....AaRRghhh 4.16 Pm ( 30/1/99 ) Comments *thinking* I should give up her ?? yah....maybe ....always like this ....always weekend like this .....I work so hard oso cannot win her heart ?? dun know ...wait ?? yah wait but can wat ?? nothing....juz gei xin gei xin always like this ....can't stand it ...Aaarghhhhhhh.....time for mi really gone from here ?? yah...time liao .....*look ard* I love her ....*cried* make a page for her ...but dun think show to her any more....maybe not .....maybe yes *cried* sighZ .......NbZ guy cry wat .......KaoZ.....I DUN WAN TO CRY ANY MORE !!!!!!!!!!!!! Aaaarghhhh I HAte it ....hate it .......NbZ ............................................................. 4.15 PM ( 31/1/99 ) Comments sighZ.....always tell her I miss her ....she juz diam diam ......same as wat FW ask her qustion .....know she treat mi better then that FW ...but.....I'm human got feeling .... can't control to show oso ......I can't hide *sad* puiZ .....always tell her how I feel ....nowdays more worse tok to her oso will feel shy ??? dun know wat the hell am I doing liao ...sighZ .....love her so deep for wat ? sighZ .....she will never know how mi feeling.....dun know....she always keep & hide herself feeling.....I jus dun wan to feel how she feel liao ......mi always make mistake that she love mi ......dreaming too much liao .....mondays start work liao .....must be very busy .......sighZ....juz now .....I wan to tell her those 3 words which I never say to any gals ......but .....say liao ....will she give mi the same ans ....yah....mostly ......wat for ?? wait she think I wat again ...*sad* Arghhh....can't stand it .....I will try to 4get her .....I will....same thing like mi ex gf .....when I gone ......she will feel say ..... she will feel she actally love mi b4 .....maybe *smile* |
04-02-1999 ( 5/2/1999 ) | |
| Comments | 1st time go her house ...pass her flowers & her mummy too...each 24 stalk .... |
1.24 ( 8/2/1999 ) | |
| Comments | LKW ( 28/1/99 ) From 2.45 AM Comments Well...I'm back here again ....*smile*.....I miss here every single words I type .....miss her everdays .... miss everything.....sighZ....I always keep coming back here take a look ....but becoz of the reboot system ....until now I can sign this book again .... =) ....think back those few mths had happen to mi .....sighZ ....a very long & sad day for mi to rem it .....I dun know wat to do oso .....try to 4get her but ....still the same as b4 .....still luv her .....some time I ask miself ......why must treat her so good ? that day I ask her wat U treat mi as ? she tell mi until now still the same ....as best friend.....when I hear this ....itz break mi heart .....itz pain .....hurt ......I cried & din sleep that night ....keep thinking wat should I do ......juz keep thinking.....ans is dun know .....I hate it .....at the end I tell her one thing ....no matter wat happen I still always beside her ....still luv & care her as b4 .......very toopig....sighZ....dun know oso .....wat is luv ? I know ...but she know anot ?? even she luv who ....she oso dun know ..... she & CMW case already over ....but their ans is impossible .....know this I should feel happy ? no I not happy at all ......mi heart already hurt .....juz hope now we got time to chat , care , luv each other juz do it ......I dun have much time .....juz let it be .....let it be .....but I still hope she can juz say out she luv mi ...... 31-01-1999 ( 1/2/99 ) Comments *sad* today she pg CMW leave a voice mail *song* ....*yi sheng xiang ni* know wat she pg him I feel *end of the world *......why ??? *sighZ * I dun mind she pg him as friends or tok on phone .....I juz care and I mind how she thinking and that song mean wat when she pg to him .......dun know ....I juz dun know wat to do ....juz feel hurt ..... always like this .....feel hurt .......some more I dun wan to see her cried or feel hurt again ......I dun wan keep asking her those words again I really hope dun wan to ask her any more ......answer is always NO why I keep asking her ...why ?? always like this I got feeling like I affect her school work ....feel she always dun have much time to study or sleep .........*cried* ......I really can't take it any more ......I can't take it any more ...... I pg her leave msg .....and a song .....tell her we dun lie to each other ....I know she still miss and love him ....no matter how hard I try oso won't win her heart.... love is already gone ....no matter how I try ....how long I wait .....all gone....won't coming back any more .....*cried* ard 2 plus she pg mi thru singnet ...know that she looking for mi at there....*s* I log in look for her at there...but she log off liao ....*sad* pg her she pg mi gd night.....leave voice mail to her .....I say ...all those I wanted to say out .....pengZ she pg mi back *SO THAT THIS IS WAT U GOING TO SAY OK * *sad* think I wan to say this to her ?? No.......Noooooooo.........I very sad .....sad.........I call her tell her 3 words which I never say this to any gals I love b4 ......ehhh.....*pengZ* I laff at miself too ......I say I LOVE U ....*pengZ* this time I really pengZ liao ....but at least I brave to show her how I feel.....yeap at least I do it ....but......she asking some thing which I dun wan to say out .....juz ....nothing....nothing......these few days I will keep looking for job .....dun have much time to come here or surf net .....*look ard* I love here every single words ......I love this place .....only 2 of us ......I love her ......*sighZ* ai yi li kai .....jing guo le zhang ai .....ai shi zhong bu hui zai hui lai ........ |
NBZ ( 21/2/1999 ) | |
| Comments | LKW ( 8/2/99 ) Comments 01-12-1998......1st time she muackZ mi thru net coz I create a homepage for her .......... 06-12-1998......1st time go her house downstair , ask wenxiang pass her 12 stalk pink rose.....she tell mi I should send her 11 not 12 *mean friendship* .......... 23-12-1998......X'mas coming I ask mi bro pass her a blue *her fav color *towl bear with a bear card...........25-12-1998 she ask mi wat X'mas persent I wish ? I tell her I wish her to call mi deardear * dun mean anything* think back that day .....they way she say out thru phone....juz feel she very sweet...*very happy even juz a words dun mean any meaning to her , but for mi .....smile*...... 04-01-1999......1st time I meet her,at her house downstair .....still rem that day I very shy to face her......dun know see her face more than 10 min anot ....*smile*.............. 09-01-1999........1st time we go out together , *she crying coz sad thing happen to both of us* take a taxi fetch her from her house *raining* .....pengZ the taxi driver dun know turn wat FM all those old song ....so funny we both laffing at each other .....we both go QC eat satay , never in mi life feel so happy before....later we walk to ms meet CMW go KTV......... 1st time send her until her house door........ 16-02-1999.......2nd time we meet coz we wan to spy kelly and tian ming ....at the end we not even know where they 2 .....so sianZ kena spy by her cyber xiaodi , but luckly her xiaodi dunknow who i am .....later we go to ms take dinner and watch 1st time movie *Meet Joe Black* at suntec until 3 am plus send her home ....she 1st time take m taxi......I hold her hand not more then 5 min ......I know I should not do this .....that night coz I can't control mi feeling *sorry LCY* ........ 31-01-1999.......1st time in mi life tell some one I Love .....3 words 1 meaning ..... I LOVE YOU ...... I know I can't hide it any more ......*sad*........04-02-1999.......1st time went her house .....feel so pai seh ....not even dare to walk ard......not even dare to look at her .....scared she think other way .... pass her 48 stalk pastic flowers which I make miself ownself ......24 for her with a card and 24 for her mother coz I know she love her mother .....she happy I oso happy .....some more show her a very special homepage which I create for 14-02-1999.....I very happy on that day .......when she was busy doing her HW , I peep her ......feel so warm when she beside mi ..... 07-02-1999.....2nd time go her house ...... pass her 1 pooh bear & cards , repair her com too.....she show mi her house ard .....but mi feeling all dun like the 1st time I went......that feeling suddenly gone ......today I tell miself ......from now onwards ......I still can love & care her , but I won't tell her anymore , I won't let her know how I feel , I won't , all leave to FATE .......if we can be together .....we avoid oso not use at the end we still got to face it ......like this better for her & for mi , she dun need to worry abt love relationship effect her study or how she thinking , I oso dun wan to kena wat she say to mi itZ Hurt.....very hurt feeling .....next time if she hurt mi again , I won't say out it any more .... love some one dosen't mean must be forever together , as long she happy as long she fine *smile* ......I'm a grow up adult.....some ppl might think I act like kids or wat ....but mi mind and wat I do no one will know how I feel .......now alot of thing I must think it again esp mi future.....I know wat I should do .....I know wat I should have ......and I know wat I should fight for it *smile* *look ard* mi feeling hurt b4 ....mi heart crack b4 , *sighZ* from now onwards I won't let this matter to be happen again .....always tell her No Matter Wat Happen I still the same guy she know .....still the one who love her b4 .....*smile* time for mi to leave .....don't know when coming back again .......bye mi beloved ....takecare ..... HugZ......always Luv U Jessica.......... ALL I WAN TO SAY OUT FROM MI HEART ( 8/2/99 ) From Sob Comments W hen we first met I held back so much afraid to show my deepest feelings As I got to know you better your gentleness and honesty encouraged me to open up and I started a trust in you that I never had with anyone else Once I started to express my feelings I realized that this is the only way to have a relationship It is such a wonderful feeling to let myself be completely known to you Thank you so much for showing me what two people can share together I love you When I Wake Up Each Morning ( 8/2/99 ) Comments S ometimes it is hard to put feelings into words but I want you to know how you affect me When I wake up and see you in the morning I am so happy that we are together I respect you I admire you I love you deeply When I wake up each morning and see you next to me no matter what happens I know that my day will be all right I LOVE YOU MORE THAN I HAVE EVEN LOVED ANO ONE ELSE BEFORE ( 8/2/99 ) Comments I n the morning when the sun is just starting to light the day I am awakened and my first thoughts are of you At night I stare at the dark trees silhouetted against the quiet stars I am entranced into a complete peacefulness and my last thoughts are of you I love you I LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH THING ARE NOT PERFECT BETWEEN USE ( 8/2/99 ) Comments N o one is perfect therefore no relationship can be perfect Often by seeing the dry brown petals in a rose you appreciate more the vivid red petals that are so beautiful At the core of our relationship there is a very deep respect and love for one another so as we continue to grow and change as individuals our relationship will continue to grow stronger and become more beautiful I love and appreciate you so much I PROMISE THAT I WILL LOVE YOU ( 8/2/99 ) Comments I cannot promise you that I will not change I cannot promise you that I will not have many different moods I cannot promise you that I will not hurt your feelings sometimes I cannot promise you that I will not be erratic I cannot promise you that I will always be strong I cannot promise you that my faults will not show But - I do promise you that I will always be supportive of you I do promise you that I will share all my thoughts and feelings with you I do promise you that I will give you freedom to be yourself I do promise you that I will understand everything that you do I do promise you that I will be completely honest with you I do promise you that I will laugh and cry with you I do promise you that I will help you achieve all your goals But - most of all I do promise you that I will love you THOUGH WE ARE DIFFERENT FROM EACH OTHER ( 8/2/99 ) From ALL THAT MATTER TO ME IS THAT WE LOVE EACH OTHER Comments I often wonder what made us fall in love with each other We are so different from each other Our strengths and weaknesses are so different Our ways of approaching things are so different Our personalities are so different Yet our love continues to grow and grow Perhaps the differences we have add to the excitement of our relationship and I know that both of us as a team are stronger than either of us alone We are basically different from each other but we have so many feelings and emotions in common And it really doesn't matter why we fell in love All that matters to me is that we continue to respect and love each other OUR LOVE CAN LAST FOREVER IF WE BOTH WANT IT TO ( 8/2/99 ) Comments I want to have a lasting relationship with you I know that this will mean that we both must work hard to please each other to help each other to be fair and honest with each other to accept each other as we really are Our love can last forever if we want it to We both must work hard to keep our individuality yet also become one with each other to remain strong and supportive of each other in adverse times as well as in good times to be exciting and interesting to ourselves and to each other We both must work hard to always consider each other the most important person in the world to always consider love the most important emotion that we can feel to always consider our relationship the most serious and significant union of two people Even though it may not always be easy to have a lasting relationship working hard is very easy when the results can be the beauty of a loving and lasting us I love you I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ( 8/2/99 ) Comments S ince I met you I have been so happy except that I find myself worrying all the time - worrying that I might disappoint you worrying that our relationship might end worrying that you might not be happy worrying that something might happen to you I have fallen in love with you and I guess I worry so much because I care about you so much I LOVE YOU MORE THEN LOVE ( 8/2/99 ) Comments I t is impossible to capture in words the feelings I have for you They are the strongest feelings that I have ever had about anything yet when I try to tell you them or try to write them to you the words do not even begin to touch the depths of my feelings And though I cannot explain the essence of these phenomenal feelings I can tell you what I feel like when I am with you When I am with you it is as if I were a bird flying freely in the clear blue sky When I am with you it is as if I were a flower opening up my petals of life When I am with you it is as if I were the waves of the ocean crashing strongly against the shore When I am with you it is as if I were the rainbow after the storm proudly showing my colors When I am with you it is as if everything that is beautiful surrounds us This is just a very small part of how wonderful I feel when I am with you Maybe the word "love" was invented to explain the deep, all-encompassing feelings that I have for you but somehow it is not strong enough But since it is the best word that there is let me tell you a thousand times that I love you more than "love" I WANT OUR RELATIONSHIO TO LAST ( 8/2/99 ) Comments I thought I would never find the right person to love until I met you And since I have always thought that love is the most important part of my life I want our love to last and to be as beautiful as it is now I want our love to be the backbone of our lives forever Our love came naturally but I know that we must both work at making it last so I will try my hardest at all times to be fair and honest with you I will strive for my own goals and help you achieve yours I will always try to understand you I will always let you know what I am thinking I will always try to support you I will try to successfully blend our lives together with enough freedom to grow as individuals I will always consider each day with you special Regardless of what events occur in our lives I will make sure that our relationship flourishes as I will always love and respect you DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME ( 8/2/99 ) Comments S ometimes I wake up in the middle of the night shivering from fright feeling empty feeling nothing because I think about how it would be if you weren't here And then I wonder if you really know how very much you mean to me how incredible I think you are how you are a part of all my emotions how you are the deepest meaning in my life Please always know that I love you more than anything else in the world LOVE CAN LAST FOREVER IF YOU WANT IT TO ( 8/2/99 ) Comments L ove is the strongest and most fulfilling emotion possible It lets you share your goals, your desires your experiences It lets you share your life with someone It lets you be yourself with someone who will always support you It lets you speak your innermost feelings to someone who understands you It lets you feel tenderness and warmth - a wholeness that avoids loneliness Love lets you feel complete But in order to have a lasting love relationship you must make a strong commitment to each other and love and you must do and feel everything within your mind and body to make this commitment work You must be happy with yourself and you must understand yourself before you can expect someone else to be happy with you or to understand you You must be honest about yourself and each other at all times and not hold any feelings back You must accept each other the way you are and not try to change each other You must be free to grow as individuals yet share your life as one but not live your life through each other You must follow your own principles and morals and not follow what societal roles tell you to do You must believe that men and women are equal and that neither person should be made to feel inferior in any way In order to have a lasting love relationship you must be together always in your heart but not necessarily always in your activities You must be proud of each other and love and not be ashamed to show your sensitive feelings You must treat every day spent with each other as special and not take each other or your love for granted You must spend time talking with each other every day and not be too busy with outside events that you are too tired for each other You must understand each other's moods and feelings and not hurt each other intentionally but if your frustrations are taken out on each other you must both realize that it is not a personal attack You must be passionate with each other often and not get into boring patterns You must continue to have fun and excitement with each other and not be afraid to try new things You must always work at love and your love relationship and not forget how important this relationship is or what you would feel like without it Love is the strongest and most fulfilling emotion possible If you commit yourself to love love can last forever if you want it to and I do FOR THE PERSON I LOVE MOST IN MI LIFE ( 8/2/99 ) Comments Y ou are my love You understand all my thoughts You understand whatever I do You are fun You are exciting You are strong You are gentle You are intelligent You are honest You are sensitive You are creative You are the one person that I trust my life with and whom I always want to be with You are my I WILL STAY IN LOVE WITH YOU FOREVER ( 8/2/99 ) Comments H ow can I stay in love with you forever? How can we make our relationship into a lifetime of sharing and joy? In order to stay in love forever I must first find the right person to love and I have, in you In order to stay in love forever we both must understand each other and ourselves very well and we must be completely honest with each other at all times We both must have our own goals and interests and actively pursue them We both must have complete freedom of thought and we must encourage each other to follow our dreams We must always be fair, kind and supportive of each other We must dedicate ourselves to being equal partners in all that we feel and in all that we do We must promise each other that we will always create time to just appreciate each other and our love and that we will never be lazy and take our love for granted In order for me to stay in love with you forever and have a relationship that is a lifetime of sharing and loving I must really pledge myself to this wonderful commitment and I must really want to stay in love with you forever and I do I AM READY TO LOVE YOU ( 8/2/99 ) Comments I love you Sometimes it takes adverse conditions for people to reach out to one another Sometimes it takes bad luck for people to understand their goals better Sometimes it takes a storm for people to appreciate the calm I love you Sometimes it takes being hurt for people to be more sensitive to feelings Sometimes it takes doubt for people to trust one another Sometimes it takes seclusion for people to find out who they really are Sometimes it takes disillusionment for people to become informed Sometimes it takes feeling nothing for people to feel everything Sometimes it takes our emotions and feelings to be completely penetrated for people to open up to love I have gone through many of these things and I now know that not only am I ready to love you but I do I REALLY DO LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH SOMETIMES IT MIGHT NOT SEEM SO ( 8/2/99 ) Comments S ometimes it may not seem that I love you Sometimes it may not seem that I even like you It is at these times that you really need to understand me more than ever because it is at these times that I love you more than ever but my feelings have been hurt Even though I try not to I know that I am acting cold and indifferent It is at these times that I find it so hard to express my feelings Often what you have done to hurt my feelings is so small but when you love someone like I love you small things become big things and the first thing I think about is that you do not love me Please be patient with me I am trying to be more honest with my feelings and I am trying not to be so sensitive but in the meantime I think you should be very confident that at all times in every way possible I love you WALK WITH MI IN LOVE ( 8/2/99 ) Comments Walk with me in love Talk to me about what you cannot say to others Laugh with me even when you feel silly Cry with me when you are most upset Share with me all the beautiful things in life Fight with me against all the ugly things in life Create with me dreams to follow Have fun with me in whatever we do Work with me towards common goals Dance with me to the rhythm of our love Walk with me throughout life Let us hug each other at every step in our journey forever in love LOVE IS ( 8/2/99 ) Comments Love is being happy for the other person when they are happy being sad for the person when they are sad being together in good times and being together in bad times Love is the source of strength Love is being honest with yourself at all times being honest with the other person at all times telling, listening, respecting the truth and never pretending Love is the source of reality Love is an understanding so complete that you feel as if you are a part of the other person accepting the other person just the way they are and not trying to change them to be something else Love is the source of unity Love is the freedom to pursue your own desires while sharing your experiences with the other person the growth of one individual alongside of and together with the growth of another individual Love is the source of success Love is the excitement of planning things together the excitement of doing things together Love is the source of the future Love is the fury of the storm the calm in the rainbow Love is the source of passion Love is giving and taking in a daily situation being patient with each other's needs and desires Love is the source of sharing Love is knowing that the other person will always be with you regardless of what happens missing the other person when they are away but remaining near in heart at all times Love is the source of security Love is the source of life 2.39 AM ( 10/2/99 ) Comments just one rose, it starts out small, a flower or a sign. with rain and love it comes to know the sun and grows in time. just one rose, it grows to know the heart as its own sign. that's why you'll find on valentine's day..... it's the rose that comes to mind. hugs and kisses SOME ONE I LOVE DEEPLY INSIDE MI HEART ...THANKS DEAR ( 10/2/99 ) Comments Thank you For a world of kindness Thank you for your endless patience Thank you For your sensitive understanding Thank you for your Love ................. ( 14/2/99 ) Comments ............... HappY Chinese Yrs ( 16/2/99 ) Comments I dun mean to do that ...really dun mean ...but I ready dun know wat am I doing ....I like siao ......mad.......or wat ?? I juz dun know .....juz very scared......very kan chong abt her .....I dun know .......new yrs ?? I not happy at all.....not happy .....so many yrs this is 1st time i feel new yrs like hell to mi .......I shout.... I cry..... I ban ....I do wat I can cool down miself ....never in mi life like this .......never.......wat the hell am I doing ? I dun know ....this is wat ?? I dun mean to tok to her like this I dun mean but I ......wo zhen de hao ai ta......sighZ.........sorry for everything....... 2nd DayS Chinese New YrS .. ( 17/2/99 ) From ~_~ Comments ............... 12.47 AM ( 18/2/99 ) From I'm SorrY Comments @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- @}--'-,---- =15 rose mean I'm really sorry.................Forgiveness is letting go of the pain and accepting what has happened, because it will not change. Forgiveness is dismissing the blame. Choices were made that caused the hurt; we each could have chosen differently, but we didn't. Forgiveness is looking at the pain, learning the lessons it has produced, and understanding what we have learned. Forgiveness allows us to move on towards a better understanding of universal love and our true purpose. Forgiveness is knowing that love is the answer to all questions, and that we all are in some way connected. Forgiveness is starting over with the knowledge that we have gained. I forgive you, and I forgive myself. I hope you can do the same. ^(oo)^ ( 18/2/99 ) Comments Everyday I have more of this emotion .....Everyday I ask myself what I'm feeling for her .....All my sorrows have turned to happiness or.....All my happiness turned to sorrows...... Never think to made this go away.....but I did .....I hurt her .....*cry* I really dun mean it ......*shout* I LOVE HER !!!!!!! ..... In my dreams, her face is all I see .....Within mine eyes the world has changed .....Is there something the matter with me? .....This want, this need, it frightens me to face it..... For there's something there when we care each other ....sighZ ...Love ?? *smile*..... Such a sweet,loving caress she give me ..... But at that moment something happened to my heart...... And as I stared at her face I wish I said, "I love you ." watashiwa anata aishite aimasu ( 19/2/99 ) Comments I can see the pain living in your eyes And I know how hard you try You deserve to have so much more I can feel your heart and I sympathize And I'll never criticize all you've ever meant to my life I don't want to let you down I don't want to lead you on I don't want to hold you back From where you might belong You would never ask me why My heart is so disguised I just can't live a lie anymore I would rather hurt myself Than to ever make you cry There's nothing left to say but good-bye You deserve the chance at the kind of love I'm not sure I'm worthy of Losing you is painful to me |
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